I Am The Shadows
written by Alaina Friederichas
not many people can see a shadow.....much like not many people can see me.....I am mostly seen in the dark corners of hogwarts....I see a lot of things when I'm in the shadows.....but this is about how I got in the shadows in the first place.......and how now....I am not a shadow....I am actually a light.... :) -Alaina
Last Updated
05/31/21
Chapters
8
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600
My Depression, Bipolar, Schizophrenia
Chapter 6
Before I get asked.....yes I had three mental disorders.......but they started as Depression first.....and over time it started to get worse. As I said in my last chapter....I was being teased.....and it didn't help that I had gotten beaten and abused at home.....so I fell into a really dark place.... I was hit and ridiculed for my magic and my inventions.....people would call me the oil girl and that really took a toll on my self-esteem..... So I stopped going to class and studied in my room..... The only times I would come out was when we had a test or a final exam.....and even then I could hear the people snickering.....
One day I was in the library and out of nowhere.......I started laughing and smiling and I had no idea why......and then a minute after that.....I started balling my eyes out..... I had no idea what was happening.....but I kept it to myself in fear of everyone making fun of me...... So I stayed isolated even more......I even got to the point where I stopped eating..... My classmates thought that I was insane.....cause in the middle of the night I would start laughing and then a minute after start screaming out of pain and agony...... I was then transferred to my own dorm and my own space......not even Ella knew what was happening....
Soon after that.....I heard voices in my head.....they kept telling me I failed......so I made more discoveries and inventions just to stop them....... They would go away for a time period and then come back with a new taunt......I hated myself for having these voices......very soon I saw demons... I saw monsters in my head and what I thought was real life.... They kept laughing and taunted me.....I hated it so much I started screaming every time they appeared..... But they never went away.....so I would keep crying, laughing, and screaming....... But I must admit that the next chapter.....I regret so much......and if I had a time machine....I would tell myself to not do it.....
One day I was in the library and out of nowhere.......I started laughing and smiling and I had no idea why......and then a minute after that.....I started balling my eyes out..... I had no idea what was happening.....but I kept it to myself in fear of everyone making fun of me...... So I stayed isolated even more......I even got to the point where I stopped eating..... My classmates thought that I was insane.....cause in the middle of the night I would start laughing and then a minute after start screaming out of pain and agony...... I was then transferred to my own dorm and my own space......not even Ella knew what was happening....
Soon after that.....I heard voices in my head.....they kept telling me I failed......so I made more discoveries and inventions just to stop them....... They would go away for a time period and then come back with a new taunt......I hated myself for having these voices......very soon I saw demons... I saw monsters in my head and what I thought was real life.... They kept laughing and taunted me.....I hated it so much I started screaming every time they appeared..... But they never went away.....so I would keep crying, laughing, and screaming....... But I must admit that the next chapter.....I regret so much......and if I had a time machine....I would tell myself to not do it.....
