CHAPTER NOTES: I'm home sick right now 🤒🤧 So Bella needs to be sick with me

The moment i wake up in the morning, I feel fucking exhausted and already know it's gonna be a long fucking day. I manage to force myself out of bed to get up and get dressed for charms class. After taking a hot shower, I pull on a green Slytherin hoodie and my black skirt. Pairing it up with black Adidas. I look at myself in the mirror as i pull my hair into a messy bun, i look like shit, and i dont have the energy to give two shits about how my hair looks. Before i leave i pull on my robe and grab my books and start to head to charms. I finally make it to charms class, but i feel so tired that it's hard to focus on anything right now. I try my best to focus but. All i can really focus on is Mattheo, who's now sitting a few desks away. I bite my lip as i him there. I had a gut feeling that he wasnt going to sit next to me...but it still hurts. Poor boy looks just as tired as me. I finally just lay my head down on my desk and fall asleep, fuck it I have good grades in this class.

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Out of the corner of my eyes i see bella laying her head down and falling asleep. I can only imagine that she had just as hard of a time sleeping with everything that happened last night. When I look over at her again, i can tell shes fallen asleeping, and I feel a little bad. I glances over at her again and smile a tiny bit, thinking of how peaceful she looks sleeping like. Charms seemed to go on for hours, but eventually class ends, and i can finally wake her up. As the other students pass by her desk, i gently shake her shoulder a bit."Bella... Come on, it's time to wake up..." Im a bit surprised when she doesn't respond, but then i realise that she's alot paler then usual and sweating. A few seconds pass before i gently shake  her again  " Bella? Are you feeling okay...?" I start to get worried as she shakes her head no and lays it onto the desk. I move my hand over to rest it on her forehead. Shit! she's running a bit of a fever, i rub my thumb gently on her forehead for a few seconds before asking, "How long have you been feeling like this?"

"Since yesterday" she mumbles her eyes still closed, "Have you been feeling achy? Your muscles hurt at all or anything?"

I watch as she shrugs "It might be stress or somethin" she mumbles again. I let out a soft sigh, not really knowing what else to say right now. I giver her a gentle pat on the head, before whispering "Do you want me to take you to the infirmary?" I feel a smile creep onto my lips as she shakes her head. Always the stubborn one, "I want to go back to my room" I smile as I nod "Okay. Come on, I'll help you up." With that, I wrap my arm around her and help her up from the seat slowly.

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When I  feel Mattheo start to lift me up, i realize that he's going to carry me back to my dorm.  Feeling Mattheo carrying me makes my heart beat just a bit faster. While he holds me, he begins to head to my room, "Just lean on me for now, okay?" I nod and wrap my arms around his neck and rest my head on his shoulder, nuzzling my face into his neck breathing in the smell of cigarette smoke and pinewood. I hear him let out a soft sigh. The walk to my room isn't all that long, but it seems to take forever right now because of how close i am to him again Finally Mattheo reaches the room. He walks inside and gently lays me down on my bed. He

stands over me for a moment, looking down at. "You sure you don't want to go to the infirmary? They could give you a potion for the fever." He sighs and places his hand on my cheek, gently rubbing his thumb across my warm skin in a soothing manner.  I shake my head again, no fuck that shit I think, but a smile sigh escapes my lips as his touch feels like heaven sent. 

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Im glad to see a small smile on her face. I  can feel how

warm her skin is and Im worried she should see Pomfery, but knowing her stubbornness she'll never agree to go. "Okay, just try to get some rest now, okay?" I  lean down over her and press a gentle kiss to her forehead. I feel like her fever is so bad that maybe this kiss will help it go down or make the fever leave her completely. Right? Fuck no that's most stupid thing ever. I feel my hert stop as i hear her mumble "I love you". I can't help but smile even if i know im supposed to love Pansy. All of that is gone

from my mind right now as she says that. I brush a loose strand of hair out of her face and smiles down "I love you too." She closes her eyes and smiles. Fuck seeing her smile so innocently makes my fucking heart melt. I rub my thumb gently over her cheek

still and smile down at her, my eyes trail over beautfil features.

Shit! I know that i shouldn't be doing this right now since i have Pansy. But i don't care right now. I love her too much to stop. I lean down and kissing her forehead again, then kiss her cheek. I pause for a moment before continuing. My hand moves down from her face and brushes along her arm gently, feeling the smooth skin. With that i kiss her neck softly and work my way up to the corner of her mouth.  Kissing right on the corner of her mouth, my lips pressed to her skin as i give her a gentle kiss that is filled with so much longing. When I  feel her smile falter and the tears start to form, i slowly pull away. My heart aches looking at her gently wipeing away some of the tears. "Bella... I'm sorry" i say softly

 "I shouldn't be doing this while I'm still dating Pansy....." I gently grab her hand and rub my thumb along the skin of her palm before speaking again. "Even though I'm dating her right now.... I can't stop loving you... Even if I really did try. I just couldn't stop loving you..."

Bella nods still burning up "I've tried to stop but I can't" She mumbles. I sigh quietly, feeling a bit of pain in my chest. I keep gently holding her hand in my, rubbing my thumb across the skin of her palm. I stay like that for a few seconds, holding her hand, "Maybe...... Maybe we should stop this.... This isn't how it should be right now. I should stop loving you..." I watch as she's curls up into a ball, i reach out and gently start combing my fingers through her soft hair. "Maybe we should stop this for a while... And then try again after some time...." I sigh "I'll break up with her... And we'll try again, okay?" She opens her eyes and shakes her head "Don't do it because of me. Do it because you want to. I know you also love her too" she whispers. I can't help but smile a little, "I do love her... I do... But what I feel for you is so much stronger and deeper than it could ever be for her-" I pause for a second before continuing to speak laughing "You have no idea how many times I've been close to breaking up with her all because of you-" She looks up at me concerned "Really?" I smile softly when i see her concerned, burning up face. I gently reach out and place my hand over her forehead and feel the heat again.

"Really... I've almost broken up with her so many times. The only reason I haven't done it is because every time I go to break it off with her, she suddenly turns really nice and sweet, making me want to stay..." I sigh and look at her again, "Im sorry" she whispers,

I can't help but smile again, softly speaking, "No, it's okay... I'm not looking for an apology from you or anything..." I gently brush away a strand of hair from her flushed face and look at her again. "I don't want you to feel sorry... I honestly should feel like the guilty one more than anything...since... technically I'm the one cheating...,"You are?" I laugh softly at this question. Even though it's a serious, somehow it's still a bit funny at the same time. "Well... I am.... I'm still dating Pansy, yet I'm talking about how I have such strong feelings for you and have been telling you I love you" I pause for a moment before continuing "And let's also not forget that I kissed you yesterday-"

"True"  She whispers starting to shiver from the fever,  i grab a blanket off of the bed and drape it over trying to keep her warm.

"Here.... Try to get some sleep, okay? You're really burning up.... I'm gonna go get the healing herbs to help with your fever." I stand up and straighten my clothes, then turn and start to walk towards the door. "Okay....thank you Matty"  I freezes for a second wheb she says that....that nickname out loud... it takes me a moment to process "Y-yeah, no problem.... I'll be right back..." I stutter, fucking hell I haven't heard that name in  so long... a name that used to make me happy... a name that even made me fall in love with her. As I reach the infirmary, i walk in grab the herbs and walk right out without saying anything. A few moments later I return to Bellas room with the herbs in hand.  walking into her room and quietly shutting the door behind me. I walk over to her bed and sees Bella sleeping, noticing the slightly flushed cheeks and slightly parted lips. i smile softly to myself as i place the herbs I got has in my hand down on the nightstand next to the  bed. i sit down on the edge of the bed and gently place my hand over her forehead again, feeling the heat of her fever. I frown slightly, still concerned as i feel her warm skin under my hand. I watch her sleep for a moment, watching her chest move up and down as she breaths. pausing for a second, my eyes trailing over her features before gently shaking her shoulder to try and wake her up. When I  see her brows furrow like that, i can't help but think how cute that looked. After staring at her for a few more seconds I speak quietly "Hey.... wake up for a minute, it's me..." I gently shake her shoulder again, trying to nudge her into consciousness. Bella wakes up then suddenly jumps out of bed. A second later she  runs to the bathroom to throw up in the toilet. It surprised me when she did that but i get up and follows after her. Walking into the bathroom Bellas leaned over the toilet, throwing up. I gently kneel down beside her and rub my hand soothingly on her back. Ive missed this....ive missed taking care of her.  a strand of her hair falls in front of her face. I reach out with  and brush the strand away before gently holding her black hair back. I continue rubbing her back soothingly as she throws up again. "It's okay.... let it all out..." I continue to comfort her and soothe her as she throws up again. .

 I wait for a few minutes until she's finally finished throwing up. She leans her forehead against the rim of the toilet, I sigh and stop rubbing her back. "You finished puking?" Nope she sits up and throws up again. I  frown as i continue rubbing soothing circles on her. After another couple minutes she turns to look over her shoulder and smiles. And it feels like the world just stoped moving.