CHAPTER NOTES: I couldnt help myself with the tittle 🤭 if you know the movie it's from I love you! Also if you want the playlist I used/using for writing tell me and I'll share my playlist with y'all. Also sorry for the short chapter again. 

I play my playlist again to try and distract my mind from all the things that just happened, and it works for the most part. It's been a pretty long day and im ready to just relax with the music and try my best not to think about everything that happened today. Eventually the hours pass and the lights in my room have been shut off. Im laying in bed, getting ready to go to sleep. As i lay there waiting for sleep to come to, i hear a knock at the door. I pause as i listen to the sound again..Who the fuck? I hear a nock again. I stand up and pull on a baggy grey sweatshirt that's covers my shorts and walk to the door. The second i crack open the door I see Mattheo standing there. As soon as i see him I can't help but stare at him for a few seconds, he looks so beautiful. I have so many questions right now, but it's hard to speak. The only thing I  can do is take in the sight of him standing right in front of me.

"Bruh its 2:40 in the morning what are your doing up still?" I groan half awake,  Mattheo's lips curl into a small smile as just stares at me for a few moments before he actually speaks. "Could I talk to you...please?" I sigh "fine" opening the door so he can enter, Mattheo hesitates for a few seconds. He takes a deep breath as he now stands in my room, looking at me. "Thank you for letting me in.. Listen, I'm gonna cut to the chase here.. You know I'm dating Pansy right?" I nod , duh like we talked about this earlier this morning  "And you know we've been together for about 3 months now right?"

"Mhm"

"And you know that Pansy's gonna ask me to the masquerade ball... You know, the big Halloween event at the end of the month.. you know....the one we used to want to go to..?" I almost wince at the last part "Mhm" Mattheo pauses for a small few seconds before He starts speaking again, "We should talk about that before she does...."

"Ok?" Mattheo pauses for a moment and sighs. "Just listen to me on this one... I know this is a lot to ask... But could you do me a favor...?" I yawn and shake my head "All I need you to do is just, let me take you to the masquerade ball... Is that okay?" I feel my heart flutter Omg i would love to "Why? She's your girlfriend" I yawn again.

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"Because, I don't really want to take Pansy to the masquerade ball... I wanted to take you... If you'd let me..." She yawns again and crawls back under her covers patting the space beside her.

I smile as she does that, so i follow her and sit down next to her.

"why don't you want to go with pansy?" She sighs, I feel my smile leave fade as she's asks. It's such a simple one but i have a hard time answering it. Maybe its because i never really thought about what that answer really was. I can't help but stare deep at her as she now turned onto her side and look at me. i keep staring back at her for a few small seconds before letting out a sigh. I feel my heart start to race as i sit there, realizing how beautiful she is right now. I can't help but feel myself falling more into her all over again. But I can't say that...All can do is just look. Fuck...the way she's looking again at me,I  can feel it. The tension between us at this moment feels almost suffocating, neither of us can look away. I can feel the heat radiating off of her. For a minute the only sound in the room was just the two of us breathing. When She sits up i finally break my gaze away from hers. But even as she looks at her hands, i can't help but watch. Bella sitting up like that made her baggy sweatshirt ride up her legs just a little. fuck. I can feel my heart starting to beat even faster, fucking shit. im falling harder and harder for her. All I want to do is touch her skin right now... I just want to feel her. I haven't been this close to her in what feels like forever. Slowly, I raise my hand over to her thigh and gently rest it  letting my skin touch hers. I feel her flinch and i cant help but smiles and slowly run my hand gently up her thigh in a soothing manner. Fuck! I've  always loved the feel of her skin.

"Mattheo...we can't.... You can't....you have a girlfriend" I sigh as she says that. I know it's true... I know i have Pansy and i shouldn't be touching her like this... But for some reason i don't fucking care right now. Maybe it's because of the late hour, or maybe it's because i know deep down that I'm  never going to stop loving Bella...My Bella. I let my hand gently move up even further and just slightly under her shorts.

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I feel my heartbeat start to pick up a little bit. But I touch his hand "mattheo....we can't I whisper" feeling my heart ache, i miss him, his touch...his everything...but this isnt right. I hesr him softly whisper "I know we shouldn't..." I turn my head and look at him screaming at myself to stop him. to move aways to do something.  But i dont i let his fingers ever so gently inch their way up under my shorts. After a few more seconds of staring into each other's eyes, Mattheo suddenly surges forward and kisses me. He kisses me passionately, pressing his body against mine so he can be even closer. I know this is wrong. I know we called whatever we had off...but I can't help it...I kiss him back with the same amount of passion, his hand moves the rest of the way under my shorts. His fingers gently run along my thigh, the sensation making me feel a familiar warmth. I continue kissing him back, every moment we kiss it makes me feel more and more heated. He slides his tongue into my mouth as we kiss, making it even more heated. He presses himself even closer, his body almost on top of mine as he gently kisses me. Soon enough, Mattheo is completely on top of me, pressing me down into the mattress. As his kisses get even more heated, he runs his hand up even further under my shorts until his hand gently rest under my butt cheek again... Just where i want it to be. I wrap my arms gently around his neck trying to get even closer then we already are, Mattheo lets out a gentle moan against my lips before moving his head down so his face is next to my neck, and he whispers, "God, I've missed you..."

I suddenly snap out of it, fuck!fuck! fuck!  "wait, wait" He looks so confused,  but so beautiful, "This is wrong you have girlfriend" I whisper. 

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i feel my heart sink again, Fuck! I feel so fucking conflicted right now. I want her so badly, but shes right i have Pansy and shouldn't be doing this right now. But i don't even care, I need her. I let out a sigh and pull away from her slightly, as she sits up slightly "I'm sorry I don't know what I was thinking when I kissed you back"  I fucking hate this i love her so much that it hurts and i just want to kiss her again. i don't care that i have Pansy right now, i just want Bella so badly. I try to push away my feelings for once, and sigh "No, I'm sorry..... I should get going now..." I watch as she nods not looking at me. Seeing her sad breaks my heart a bit more. I take a deep breath before standing up and slowly and walking towards the door. With one glance toward her,  and sigh before leaving her room and disappearing into the hallway. the moment I  leave her fucking room i feel like my heart is ripped out of my bloody chest. The sight of her sad as i left kills me from the inside. I sigh and press my body against the wall beside her door. The moment I'm  alone, tears start forming, and deispit my tears, i eventually regain my composure and head back to my dorm. 

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After I hear the door close tears that I've been holding in start to silently roll down my cheeks as I look at the ground. It hurts so much, i still feel the same way about him I did all those months ago. Despite my tears, i eventually force myself to lay back down again and turn over to go to sleep. I end up spending the night tossing and turning with images of Mattheo replaying in my head.