CHAPTER NOTES: SMUT 

A little while later after i calmed down i knocked on her door again. Or at least i thought i was calm, that was before i say in a shaky and furious tone "Open the damn door." I hear some shuffleing before i see Bella crack the door "go away" she snaps and trys to close the door again, I feel my anger boile over again as I push the door open and step into her room "No. I am not going to leave." I look down at her and feel my stomach turn as I see her tan skin is streaked with tears. "fine then I will" she says before pushing past me. I look at her shocked and run after "Where do you think you're going?? You're not going anywhere."

She starts running down the beach her long black hair bouncing in the breeze, I keep chaseing after her and yell "Get your ass back here!" I've NEVER been this mad before, and honestly I don't even know why I'm this mad. Maybe it's because of Astoria and what she said earlier, all I know is Bella running away from me right now is just making it worse.  "I said get your ass back here!" I keep running after her, I push my muscles that are screaming at me to stop and slow down but I'm too mad, I'm only few inches behind her. So I do the only logical thing I can think of. 

I tackle her.

I tackle her and pin her down on the sand under me, "Stop running away from me! I told you I wasn't going to leave and you just kept running away. You're so damn stubborn." I hear her I let out a gasp and I look down at her and see her wince in pain from being literally rugby tackled, I want to apologise and fix the pain I just caused but I can't I'm to fucking mad, and maybe that's why I don't think about what I say before I said it, "I don't care if I hurt you! You pushed me to this point! Now, what the hell do you think you were hoping to accomplish by running away from me?" I mentally cure myself out, I can't believe I just told someone...no not someone the person I love that I didn't care if I hurt them. I don't get too far in my thoughts before I feel the wind get nocked out of me. Damn she's quicker than  I thought  I lookup at her now she managed to flip me so I'm not under her small frame. I go to push her off when I suddenly gasp "Jesus Christ!" She shifts her position and I feel like the world is spinning I feel the crotch of my shorts suddenly get tighter and she freezes, I know she feels it and I feel my face go warm fucking hell not now. Any time but now. Bellas voice snaps me out of my thoughts "um....Mattheo"

"Um...Bella...uh..." She's frozen hasn't moved an inch,  I'm still trying to catch my breath from her sudden movement, "Just...just...stay still. Ok?" She nods in response and I see that her cheeks are starting to turn a light shade of pink, fuck she looks so hot. ay yo chill dude. I think scolding my brain as thoughts start entering, taking a few deep breaths i try to make the situation less awkward for her and me. "So...uh..." I pause and close my eyes my face is probably very red it has to be hell I can barley think clearly "D-do you mind if..." I open my eyes to see her cheeks are still slowly turning pink, and I internally groan at the sight fuck pull yourself together man "Do you mind if I..." She cuts me off before I even finish "whatever you need to do just do it" her cheeks are fully red as I nod my head, I take a few more deep breaths and try to get up slowly but I soon realize she's still sitting on my dick well shit.....I can't really get off with her still sitting there  "Bella..uh..." I look at her and her face is bright red "oh" she move ever so slightly in attempt to get up fuck!  I closes my eyes and take a deep breath I need her to move alittle more I think, so slowly and quietly i ask her "Bella...please move a little more." She moves a centimeter and a wave of pleasure shoot through me  "Oh god..." Fucking hell that feels so good. "Could you try to move a bit more?" I ask my voice almost a whisper, "which way?" She says panicked, i almost laugh but I keep it in "Could you try just shifting your hips a little bit..." I look at Bella as she starts to shift her hips, the feeling is almost to much to handle so I close my eyes "what's wrong?" she's asks I again almost laugh, even in this awkward situation she's still thinking of the other person, I take deep breath and open my eyes again "Um....could you...keep shifting your hips?" She abluges and dose as I say fuck! I put my hands on her hips as I lay back on the sand, i feel the sand stick to my neck, shit i didnt realize i started sweating "Keep moving your hips...uh..."

"but I'm still-" She starts to protest but i cut her off and tighten my grip on her hips "I...I know. Keep moving..."

"but Mattheo-"  

"Just. Keep. Moving." and she does fuck! I'm holding my breath and let out a grunt "Don't stop.....keep moving..."

"but I'm still-" fuck just shut up I think

"I know...just keep moving...Don't....stop..."

"but I'm still-" I cut her off again, trying my hardest not to think about how my cock is starting to make my short even tighter"Just keep moving your hips...please just don't stop..." I try to speak again but I can barly think straight, I repet what I said before "Don't....don't stop...ok?" She nods and I smile as a stray hair falls in front of her eyes without wasting a second i immediately take my hand off her hip and gently move it out of her face. As I do this I focus on her face seeing her flushed cheeks and the way her lips are parted, "Oh, hell..." another stray hair falls in front of her eye and i brush it aside again. Still focusing on her face I see small beads of sweat starting to form oh shit. i think "Don't stop...."

I close my eyes again. Fuck I'm struggling even more, oh fuck! I start to shake slightly. "Just keep moving....don't stop....please..." I whisper. That's when I hear it, its so quite I almost don't realize what it is until I hear it again, Bella....Bella is fucking whimpering,  fucking helllll. she sounds so fucking hot. "We're almost there..." I groan. I didn't realise how heavy my breathing was until I murmer "Please don't stop..." I grip on to ber waist tighter its taking everything in me not to moan, "I do love you Mattheo.... I'm sorry I never show or say it" she says in almost a Whiny way, I feel my eyes shoot open and I look at her as she rests her hand on my chest "You love me?" Bella nods "I'm sorry about earlier"

"You really do? You really do love me? I don't know why I keep asking this, it's obvious she's not living. She just nods and the sge lean forward and kiss me, all the time shes still grinding on my now throbbing cock. I immediately kiss her back and i grabs her by the backs of you hips. I was waiting for this moment for a long time, "I love you too." I keep kissing her as she moves her hips and every other time she moves a shot of pleasure runs through me and I squeeze her sides "Please…don’t stop…keep…moving…”

After her last to movements I reach the boiling point and whisper against her lips "OH GOD!!!" My grip on her waist probably is leaving bruises, as I let out a deep breath as I feel waves of ecstasy and pleasure wash over me with a startling weight my body starts to shake as I feel my cock throb as it realses warm cum into my shorts.  After a  few more seconds  I loosen my grip on her  "Fuck" I say as I lay down on the sand. I see Bella  roll off of me  onto the sand, I just lay there breathing heavily as the last bits of my orgasam leave me. I turn my head so i can look at Bella who is also out of breath "Are you alright?" I whisper. She turns to look at me and nods with a smile on her face "Ok...good..." After another few minutes i look at her again "Do me a favor...?"

"Ya?" I hear her whisper "Can you...can you help me up...?" I feel exhausted and all I want  to do is get off the cold sand. I see her loom over me and reach her hand out, I grab it and pull myself up I'm panting and as I stand by myself my legs feel like they could give out from under me any second, "Th-thank you..." I look at her as she whispers "Never in a million years did I think I would ever do that on the beach" i smile as I hear her soft laugh leave her lips

"Well, not exactly how I was expecting our day to go either..." i laugh, "Let's go back to the others...I assume they're getting worried by now..." I look down  at her as she nods,  I smile and take her hand and intertwin our fingers as we start walking. After walking for about 15 minutesorso i hear Bellas soft voice "hey Mattheo...." I stop and look at her "Yeah?" I ask and I see her worried eyes look up at me as I brush a pice of hair behind her ear

"I really am sorry... I'm sorry about earlier, like the whole fight and everything" I smile and say softly "It's ok...I'm sorry for the things I said too...but..can we..can we talk..once we get back?" I watch her nod before she speaks again "oh and Mattheo...I really did mean it....I do love you... Hell I've loved you since whatever started between us in our 3rd year" I feel my heart flutter as I look at her "I'm glad you did." We start walking again before I stop and look at her  "I need you to promise me something though." She looks at me with worry "What?" I smile at he and say in a soft voice "Promise me that you'll always be honest with me? No more keeping things from me when you're upset...ok?" She nods the  very quietly asks "Mattheo, what are we? I mean pansys right we don't even know what we are"  Alright my answer is shit. I know that, I really wished I didn't fuck it up "...Do you want to know my honest answer. I think were really good friends" The looks she gives me is haunting, the joy and hopefulness just left her blue eyes before she closes her walls to me again "Right. Friends.... Totally..." I feel the warmth of her hand disapear from mine as i look at her pleadingly, but all i get in return is a tight lipped smile and a nod. I feel my stomach drop as she says "i'm gonna head back to the house" She turns around without a second glance and jogs back towardsthe house. FUCK! "I just screwed this up..." 

Once back at the house I go straight up to my room, after closing my door I walk to my bed and thrown myself on my back looking up at the ceiling. Millions of different thought race through my head. its too much i sigh than mumble "What the hell is wrong with me.." I press the palms of my hands to my now stinging eyes. fuck! why did I say that? why couldn't I say the truth. FUCK!