Teacher x Teacher

Pairing: Severus x female

Time: Anytime before Harry is at school

Warnings: Swearing & angst

Recommended Songs: j's lullaby by Delaney Bailey & The Last Time (taylor's version) by Taylor Swift (all songs can be found in my snape playlist in my Spotify account that is linked in my bio)

"Good Damn!" You exclaim loudly. You had been busy with Christmas with your family, but some other things had come up the two weeks after. You were trying your best to get back to school as quickly as possible, but not because of your classes because it was getting very close to Severus' birthday. Every little thing that you needed to do you rushed to get it done and get back to the school, but now it was 7 pm on the ninth of January and of course, there was a teacher meeting happening until 8:30 to boot.

Throwing your coat on the floor you quickly move around and decorate your and Severus' quarters with light birthday decorations, making a small cake, while also dressing for the teacher meeting, but leaving something else on underneath. As all this was going on you were missing more and more of the meeting, but that hardly mattered today. You had promised Severus to be here on his birthday. While he always told you to never worry about it, you knew that he must be very upset and likely it's making it easier on the other teachers who only want what's best for him today. Some of the cake is done, and you check the time.

"Damn it! 8 pm! Fuck, I'm missing the meeting, and it's getting late." Quickly you throw on your teacher attire and run out the door. After a decent five-minute jog through the whole lower half of the school, you make it to the headmaster's office.

"Please, just let him at least try and be happy for tonight. Please don't let me mess this up." Opening the door, you get everyone's attention. You quickly walk over to where all the papers are placed on Dumbledore's desk while saying,

"Sorry, everyone. Tried to get here as soon as I could, but it seems the job I was given," You glance over to Dumbledore who only gently looks at you, "Had a few extra things that needed to be done before I could return." You hold the papers and stay standing next to the headmaster.

"Hopefully my students haven't been in too much trouble, those lot need to stop jumping around the place all the time." Dumbledore quickly spoke up,

"Oh don't worry about them. We're glad to finally have you back, Mrs.Y/N." Dumbledore continued with what he had previously been talking about and soon enough the meeting was over. Once everyone had let out all their thoughts on the night's meeting you quickly pulled Minerva aside to ask her something important.

"Hey, um. This probably seems odd of me to ask this, but, has Severus been acting upset and easily frustrated lately? Not that he isn't most of the time, but..." She smiles and responds.

"I get what you mean dear, and yes he has been a little on edge and has been acting quite upset for the past few days." You lower your head and frown at yourself.

"Damn it. That would be my doing." As you walk out of the headmaster's office Minerva says one last thing to you before you close the door behind you.

"Oh, don't worry. I'm sure he'll come around." After you've left Dumbledore and Minerva share a few words about you and Severus.

"They are quite soft on each other. Did you hear her smiling like an idiot when she looked at him?" Dumbledore laughed lightly and said,

"I think that we're the only ones that have noticed their friendly relationship."

You quickly move through the halls and try to get back to your quarters before Severus. You did ask another teacher however to distract him for a good few minutes before making sure he gets back to the quarters after you do. Once you're there, you look around to see if the teacher had failed at stalling him, but they seemed to have done their job. Quickly you take off your teacher attire and throw on some light-flowing clothes to be comfortable. You stand in the living room by the door waiting for him to open the door. After a few minutes, you feel even more nervous than before and constantly keep checking to make sure everything is how you want it. Soon though a good 15 minutes has passed and now your eyes are completely locked on the door.

"Where is that grump?" You pace back and forth a few times before a knock on the door is heard. You open the door to see the teacher you asked to bring him here, standing on the other side with Severus.

"Where's Severus?" The teacher held their hands together and quietly spoke to you,

"I'm sorry. I tried to get him to come back here, but he snapped at me and went to his classroom to finish his work."

"What? But it's a Saturday." The teacher apologises once more but you told them not to. It was your fault that Severus was extra blunt and snappy today. Feeling offal, you throw on a robe and leave the quarters to find him. You soon make it to his classroom but can't bring yourself to knock or open the door. You placed both your hands on the door, one on the handle and one on the door itself. After a few more seconds of trying to bring yourself to open it, you lean your forehead on it instead. Soon enough you hear him say,

"Come in." The tune in his voice was annoying and you couldn't tell if it was because he knew that it was you or not. After hearing his voice like that you stay where you were standing against the door for a good minute before you hear him yell what he had just said making you tense up for what you know is a man who's rightfully upset at his partner on his birthday of all days. Letting out a shaky breath you finally get the energy to open the door. Keeping your head down you walk in and close the door behind you without turning around. You had a feeling that this might not go the way you want it so you start up a muffling/locking spell while your back is to the door. Almost immediately there is a silence growing in the room that makes you want to just sit down and hide, but you knew that you had to say something to him.

"I..." You stutter a bit before continuing with starting a conversation.

"Severus, I'm... I tried everything to get here earlier." He kept writing down on a piece of parchment as you spoke, not seeming to pay attention. He only hummed with annoyance in response to you.

"I did. I've been running around like a lunatic trying to get back here, but..."

"But you just couldn't find it in yourself to stop working and come back." As he spoke, he didn't look up for a single second, you didn't either.

"I know that I made a promise to you," Severus mumbled a 'yeah' in the middle of your talking. This behaviour from him was making it hard for you to focus on the spell and soon you just dropped it and leaned your head back onto the door closing your eyes.

"I tried my best to get back here, okay? I know that you're upset with me and- "Again he did another one of those 'yeah' but this time a little louder making you start to get annoyed with him. Looking at him you spoke in response to his little comments.

"I know that it's not fair to you, but come on, what else was I going to do? You acting like this isn't fair to me either." He let out a scoffing cough at that and now you had finally had enough of this from him. You knew that it was the only day of the year that he probably actually cared about, and it was the first time that he was going to have someone be there with him for it. His acting this rude and blunt towards you though made you upset. You wanted to cry at him and make him feel bad for you, but you knew that wasn't fair. You were the one that was late to his birthday after all. After that, a few minutes passed with silence from both of you. Feeling the heaviness in the air and knowing that he was very hurt by you, something comes out of your mouth that you had no real reason for saying,

"I know you're upset and hurt because of me. So... If you want me to go back to our quarters... I will." Nothing came out of him this time, but he did slowly stop working. After a bit, he spoke up saying,

"I had already planned for you to not be here tonight." Feeling not only the hurt in your heart grow, but also the frustration at how unfair he was being made you say more things you would never think to hear yourself say to him.

"Maybe I'll leave the quarters too if you feel so upset with me." You stared at him annoyed with him and those words finally made him completely stop and look up at you. However, there was no emotion showing on his face. You knew that you had struck a nerve there as you easily could tell that losing you would break him, but you had to get him to realize what a dick he was.

"It seems you don't want anything more to do with me." You let a few seconds pass before continuing.

"I honestly don't understand why you are still acting like this." You take a few steps forward.

"I'm here now, aren't I?!" You felt that harsh clamming feeling you get in the back of your throat when you're about to cry.

"Why do you insist on acting this way?" This brought you over the edge. You had tried your best at getting here, worked your ass off, barely got any sleep to do it, decorated the whole quarters and everything, but he still couldn't even bring himself to let go of his bluntness and let himself be loved for one day. You took a step forward into the classroom and let it all out.

"Damn it Severus! You have no idea what things Dumbledore had me doing this whole time. I never got to see my family, I barely got any sleep, I've been worrying about getting back here and about you. Fuck, I ran around like a chicken with its head cut off once I got here decorating our quarters, baking a cake, finding something nice to wear, and even missing half of the damn teachers meeting just for you! I was hoping to God that you would at least let some amount of sympathy through that thick head of yours, but no!" You let out a good few tears before being able to speak again.

"I've busted my ass off for two weeks for you, and this is what I get for it! I get to go back to the quarters alone and cry knowing that I messed up the one day you would be yourself because I couldn't get here in time. But now that I am here you don't want anything to do with me! You don't want me to be there for you finally and let yourself be adored for one night. We may never even have this chance again either you know, with you being all the way you are I'm not sure I can take much more of this from you." The tears now weren't stopping, and you couldn't bring yourself to let any more words out. After a few seconds, You found it in yourself to look at him and you saw his eyes completely locked on yours. You wrapped your arms around yourself and felt horrible for just how badly you had messed up today. Seeing you like this made Severus stand up and walk towards you. You thought that this was going to be another one of the annoyed things he does where he just leaves, but he wrapped his arms around you instead. Not moving you kept crying quietly as Severus held you for a good few minutes before he spoke.

"I'm sorry Y/N." He rested his head on the top of yours as you buried your face in his chest.

"I'm so very sorry. I know how much you wanted to be here today. I had no idea what things you had been doing and what you had planned to do for me once you got back. I'm a stupid bloke head that needs to get yelled at before I realize that I'm the one who needs to be sorry. I was worried about you the whole time that you were gone. Once it was starting to get closer to today, I kept getting more worried and upset with you that you weren't here. Once you walked through the doors at the meeting, I was so happy to see you, but frustrated that you hadn't been here for the whole day and had only shown up when we were having a meeting that would go on all night." You let out a loud weep while in his arms and with that Severus leaned you back and gently held your face in his hand. Looking at him you saw just how soft and tired he looked. He always worried too much about you and what things you might be doing. After a little bit of holding each other and letting the last few tears fall, you both finally headed back to your quarters and held each other tight as you spent the rest of the night together for Severus' birthday.