I put my elbows on the railing and looked out over the grounds. I could tell Theo was staring at me “Why are you looking at me?” I asked smiling 

“Can I not look at you?” 

“You can but there are many other things to look at besides me,” I pointed out. A silence fell and my mind wandered to my father, to the fact that I was going to get the mark. It was unavoidable. 

Shortly after 12, Theo left and I tried to get some sleep. I woke up in the morning, forgetting my dream upon waking. At least I didn’t have another nightmare. I had a headache and went to the bathroom and got ready then I got dressed and headed down to breakfast. 

Thomas and Mattheo were already back and I sat next to Mattheo “How was your night?” He asked

“Fine, I actually got real sleep instead of nightmares that wake me up at 2 in the morning” 

“Well that's good” He replied and I nodded

My nightmares became fewer during January but I had more headaches and was stressed all the time. February arrived, it had been a week or so. Classes seemed to get harder or maybe it was just the stress. 

During dinner I went to the astronomy tower, no one else was there. I waved my hand and a bottle of firewhisky appeared in my hand. I started drinking and soon I was numb, I leaned against the wall then I slid my back down the wall. I continued drinking until someone came and grabbed it out of my hand. I didn’t say anything, just looked down at my legs. Mattheo crouched in front of me and I drifted my gaze to his face “This isn’t healthy Y/n” 

“You do it” I replied sluggishly 

“I am not the best role model” He replied “What’s going on? Why are you drinking?”

“Honestly I forgot” 

(Mattheo’s pov)

“Great” I whispered to myself while looking away from her, she shouldn't have been doing this. I shook my head and grabbed her hand then apparated to our dorm. 

Thomas was on his bed, reading a brown, leather book. He looked up then saw Y/n “She’s drunk” I explained “pretty bad”

He sighed “You and Theodore are bad inferences on her” then he shook his head “Do you know why she was drinking?”

“She said she forgot, she’s been weird ever since New Years, do you know anything?” 

“No, but I am guessing it’s just stress about classes, she says they are getting harder” 

“Hmm, maybe” I put Y/n in her bed in our dorm, I couldn't leave her alone in her dorm like this. 

The next morning we let Y/n sleep in and headed to breakfast. After breakfast we headed back to the dorm but Y/n had left. I went to her dorm and she was on her bed, her hair still damp from a shower, she was hugging her legs and staring into space. The curtains were closed and the lights were off. I walked over and sat at the foot of her bed “How are you feeling?” I asked. She stayed silent and continued looking off into space then she climbed into her sheets and turned away from me. She didn’t want to talk so I left her alone so she could try to sleep. It took her two days to be ok again, even when she came to breakfast on monday I could tell there was something wrong. When she missed lunch and dinner I went looking for her. I found her in her room, her eyes were flicking black. I called Thomas and he appeared next to me, grabbed Y/n, and disappeared. 

(Thomas’s pov)

I grabbed her and I disapparated to her bedroom in our house. I knocked her out then waited for her to wake up. She opened her dark hazel eyes and stared at me, then she started crying. I walked to her and gave her a hug, she suddenly pushed me away “Go” She mouthed before her eyes turned black. 

In a matter of seconds face changed into a smirk and she glared at me “I’m back” She said “It’s been a while” 

She waved her hand and I went flying into the wall and started choking me. Mattheo appeared in the middle of the room and took in the scene. Y/n glared at him “Move an inch and Thomas will be in pain in a matter of seconds” 

“You're not Y/n, you have no right to threaten me, where is she?”

“I still am her, just her… inside, the person who she truly is but covers me up because she I scared of me”

“Why is she scared of you if you are her true self?” he asked 

“I mean come on, if your true self was a goody two and a weak little boy would you want to hide it or cover it up?” 

“Are you saying that this is who Y/n is, but she hides it, so you're telling me she chooses to be like she is to cover you up?” 

“Then why are your eyes black and why do you smoke, Y/n hates smoking?” 

“Y/n want’s to smoke but doesn't want to be judged and she knows it’s bad for your health. She thinks smoking is cool but knows that it is also bad for your health and that coolness can be won in other ways without damaging your lungs”

“But then why do you do it?”

“Like I said, I’m everything she’s holding back, well mostly everything, there some things she doesn't want you to know”

“Like what?”

“Well I’m not going to tell you, you can ask our brother though ''She looked back at me and released me. I fell to the floor and Mattheo ran to me as she disappeared. 

“What was she talking about?” He asked

“It’s nothing important” I replied 

“It didn’t sound like that” 

“Well it is, just get over it” I apparated to the astronomy tower and saw Y/n standing there. She was alone, she turned around and waved her wand at me. I couldn’t move, I could barely breathe. She waved her wand again and I felt pain all over my body “This was all your fault, you're to blame for this, for how I turned out, even how Mattheo turned out” She shouted. Mattheo and Theodore appear and Theo went over to Y/n and stepped in front of her. Y/n grabbed his hand and they disappeared. Mattheo came over and helped me up. 

“What did she do to you?” He asked 

“I think you know” I replied and Mattheo nodded slightly 

“She’s just getting worse, how are we supposed to stop this?” 

“I have an idea but I don’t think anyone will like it”